Seriously, because everything is a blur.
This has been an absolutely crazy week for me.
My friend passed away. I’m not taking it well and my grief is presenting itself as anger. Actually, I find myself teetering between being angry and aloof. Weird, this grieving thing.
Kate asked if our WIPs were dragging, if we are still as passionate as we were during week one.
My passion is always here. It’s just that sometimes the flame is raging and sometimes it flickers. But it always remains lit.
I do, however, have an issue with my WIP. While I have been sprinkling words here and there into it this week -given the circumstances, I am having a difficult time with a conversation that needs to take place between my MC and her father. She has to tell him that she was raped… years after it happened. But we (my MC and I) are having a difficult time with telling him the details although we’ve rehearsed it several times. So to answer Kate’s question, yes my WIP is dragging because I’m making it drag.
Just say it already! (That outburst was more for me… and my MC. So we can move on, we’ve got some juiciness to get into!)
To sum up my week’s progress:
Articles: a big fat donut
Passion: on simmer
I am not sure how this upcoming week will go as far as writing because my friend’s memorial is tomorrow evening and his funeral is Thursday morning. And I’m sure I will have an anxiety attack before Thursday… I have a really tough time with funerals.
Here’s something of note, though, I followed a link from a ROWer’s blog to 750words.com today. I signed up and tried it out. I actually made it to 804 words in about 40 minutes with distractions. Now they were free-flowing-let-me-try-this-thing-out words and not directed towards my WIP but if I focus I can exceed my ROW80 goal with 800 plus words per day. We’ll see.
I’m not completely sure about much these days but this is what I do know: I’m still here.
And I’m going to make it count.