My #ROW80 goals have not been met. I have no articles. I’ve managed a couple hundred words in two weeks.
It started with the sinus headache minions that crawled through my nasal canal in the attempt to suck the life out of me through my nostrils. But that subsided and I attempted to get back on track when I received a text message from a friend.
Our mutual friend “is in the hospital on life support. It doesn’t look good.”
I’ve visited my friend twice this week (last week if your week starts on Sunday). I didn’t know how I would react to seeing him lying in that bed hooked up to all of those machines. I cried for days after I left the hospital that first night. Had trouble sleeping too. I prayed for him almost constantly. The second visit was a little easier. I stayed a bit longer. Talked to his mother. Talked to him. Rested my hand on his arm.
The visit went a little better. But surprisingly (and I’m conflicted about this), I was inspired to write. Ideas raced through my mind. Words put themselves perfectly together in my head. I got a sensation that ran through my core and made me feel light and open. I call it my Creative Mojo and it ran through me at that moment as if a dam had broken inside of me. My river of tears transformed into words. And I was conflicted. I don’t know how to feel when someone’s tragedy gives me inspiration. That was not my intention. I genuinely care about my friend and my prayers for his recovery are true.
Why do I feel so bad about something that brings me joy?
If this situation has taught me anything it’s that life is too short so live it! I will no longer fight when my Mojo floods the streets of my soul. I will embrace it.
And so I’ve decided…I am incorporating more writerly things into my life and the first thing that I’ve done is respond to an email on participating in the development of a workshop . I can help someone else and learn a few things in the process. I’m also checking out a few Twitter leads on freelance writing.
I feel good today. Alive. We can only do what we can do.
So here’s what I’ll do: I will get some writing done today. And I will visit my friend.